It's now March and February just seemed to blow by. This past month I've been finding myself constantly waiting on things to happen and be done with so I can move onto something else. That's why I haven't posted in over a month. I keep telling myself, "Just wait till the house is clean, you've checked everything you possibly can on the internet and your brain is free to think and then you can type up something eye-opening and honest." Well I can't keep waiting because none one of those things are going to happen at the same exact time, I just have to seize the 10 minutes I have to type and go. So here I'm going, because all the things I'm waiting on, house projects, life projects, and job-changing projects are not in the current right now. There's also trying to get some sort of sliver of motivation to work out in same way, shape or form. You'd think that just because we bought ourselves a treadmill, weight bench set, workout games on the Xbox or Wii, a yoga ball, and have a good chunk of time in the afternoon before I pick up Billy from the bus station...well it's just not happening. I've considered getting up possibly 45 minutes earlier in the mornings to get on the treadmill or put in a DVD to workout to, that would really be the best solution. That way I could get my metabolism ramped up, be ready for my day and not have to worry and beat myself up later if I didn't work out. It could just be DONE. That would be so wonderful.
There's always a reason why we have to wait on things, there's no instant gratification, you have to be patient, God is teaching you something that you can't see right now. He's putting it together like a beautiful orchestration of moments and bits of information all for a reason. Maybe just to teach you patience, because you need that. Maybe He's working at chipping away all the rough edges of your life that you need to get rid of. Don't be anxious, don't keep saying 'If only this/that/I could/they would/I wish/let me figure this out really quick..." Just do what's in front of you and live and be in the moment.
House, future baby, job, health and God, each other. In no particular order. Now go and just be.