Life after three miscarriages and everything in between...
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Always a 'to do...'
Every day, off and on, there's always a list of things to do in some way and capacity. Phone calls to make, bills to pay, getting a question answered, either online, by email, through someone. There's brainstorms and ideas and 'hypotheticals' for all sorts of aspects of life. For example, I still need to find a new dentist, call about getting our security system hooked up but they're not there later than 2:30pm Pacific time, following up with my L&I claim for my still numb fingers on my left hand, getting some estimates/bids on landscaping jobs for our backyard, paying our mortgage, looking up some low-carb dinner ideas...it's never ending. All these small chores make life a little more interesting and after I've completely each one I feel like I got more room in my brain for something else, know what I mean? :)
In honor of our son, Garrison Isaac's passing in my womb at 19 weeks over 3 years ago (Jan 31st), I'm revisiting my blog and finally posting. I had forgotten I had actually put the following together in March 2014 and saved it as a draft that I just now discovered in my blog's folder. I never would have thought we would find ourselves in such a difficult journey then and now as we've had 2 more pregnancy losses in 2016. We're constantly leaning on God's guidance and protection through it all, that's the only way we keep our sanity :)
So here we are...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I've compiled all the readings and order of service for Garrison's memorial together for everyone that would be interested to read. I know some of you were there, some weren't able to make it or some were far away in virtual internet land. It's a lot of text so don't feel compelled to read it all. Following th…
Had a very eventful, fun and memory-making weekend with my family and the babies and seeing so many people I haven't seen in a long time... First, read about the main eventhere at my mom's blog.
Now you can see pictures that I took with my husband's 'older' Sony semi-fancy, fat lens camera that I got to play with and take several good shots. Tell me what you think. We went over to my parent's house first before the wedding reception to see them and my brother's family visiting from Vancouver for the weekend...
It's been almost a month since Garrison went to heaven. We're still healing, putting back the pieces of our new lives and continuing to move forward as God is showing us what's next. There are so many thoughts, memories, stories, and glimpses from our lives to share about our experience of losing him. In order to not overwhelm you with too much right now I will just share about what I know. I will always have opportunities to share more as time goes on and as God reveals more to us in the future but for now I'll tell you what I know.
I know that music is therapy. God can use music to heal our souls and speak to us in ways that normal words can't. This is and was the song that brought healing to us and is still the 'anthem' to Garrison's passing. I heard it two days prior to that day, reading and hearing the words, believing God was breaking me and preparing me for whatever He is going to do next. We played this at his service, the whole eight mins as …